I’ve always been told I’m a good listener.
So why was it so hard for me to hear God?
Was He too subtle…or was I just too distracted to notice?
Back when my kids were in grade school, life felt like a loop on repeat. Wake up. Pack lunches. Clean up messes. Repeat.
Motherhood was beautiful—but if I’m honest, it also felt like Groundhog Day.
Nothing was ever really finished.
And somewhere in the middle of serving everyone else…I started to lose my sense of purpose.
So I prayed.
“God, I want more. I want a calling. Show me what You have for me.”
Not long after that, our pastor approached me and asked, “Would you consider being the youth leader?”
I laughed.
Out loud.
Because clearly… he had the wrong person.
I had never worked with kids. I wasn’t a teacher. My own kids were “easy” (or at least they listened to me… most days).
But other people’s kids?
That felt like chaos waiting to happen.
He smiled and said,
“Take two weeks. Pray about it.”
When God’s Answer Doesn’t Look Like What You Expected
I called my best friend and told her the whole story.
She laughed and said, “What… does God have to hit you over the head with it?”
Oof.
That one landed.
Because deep down, I knew what she was saying was true.
This was an answer. Just not the one I expected.
And suddenly, all my fears came rushing in:
- What if I fail in front of everyone at church?
- What if people judge me?
- What if I’m not “good enough” for something God is asking me to do?
But here’s what I’ve learned:
God doesn’t call the qualified. He qualifies the called.
Saying Yes Changed Everything
I said yes.
And what started as something small… turned into six incredible years of ministry.
Years filled with laughter, chaos, growth, and moments I will never forget.
My kids were right there beside me:
- Helping plan lessons
- Teaching crafts
- Choreographing dances for the Christmas program
We hosted summer camps, game nights, and events where kids ran wild playing things like Ghost in the Graveyard and Grog.
It wasn’t perfect.
But it was purposeful.
Even my husband stepped in—running sound, helping at events, showing up in ways that mattered.
And years later, one of my daughters—now a young professional—got a tattoo in my handwriting that says Faith.
She told me, “You taught me so much about God.”
That moment alone was worth every ounce of fear I had in the beginning.
God Was Answering More Than One Prayer
Looking back, I can see it so clearly now.
I thought I was asking for purpose beyond motherhood. But God was actually deepening my purpose within it.
Yes, I wanted to feel needed outside my home.
But even more than that… I wanted my kids to truly know God.
And that’s exactly what He gave me.
Not in a loud, obvious way.
But in a quiet invitation… that I almost missed.
When It Was Time to Let Go
Eventually, things shifted.
The kids grew up.
Schedules got full.
The church changed.
And I knew—it was time to step away.
But the impact?
That stayed.
God left His mark on me…
on my husband…
and on all three of my girls.
That season was more than a role.
It was a calling.
And it reminded me of something I never want to forget:
Sometimes God speaks the loudest in the opportunities we’re tempted to dismiss.
Feeling Like You’re Missing What God Is Saying?
If you’re in a season where life feels loud, repetitive, or overwhelming…
you’re not alone.
And you’re not missing God because you’re doing something wrong.
Sometimes, you just need space to hear Him again.
That’s exactly why I created my 10-Minute Reset for Overwhelmed Moms—
a simple, faith-filled way to quiet the noise, refocus your heart, and reconnect with God in the middle of your real, everyday life.
Because hearing Him doesn’t require a perfect schedule…
Just a willing heart.
